August 2026
Aug 30, 2026
Hiiii! (๑•᎑•๑) As I am starting this, today is August 30th 2026, 4 AM PST!
⋆✴︎˚｡⋆This post will be a summary of my August! ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶
THIS POST WILL HAVE TRIGGER WARNING! I HAVE BEEN THROUGH DIFFICULT THINGS THIS MONTH!
WARNINGS: SELFHARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, BREAKUPS/RELATIONSHIP ISSUES, CUSSING
August 1st: I woke up really early to go to a water₊˚.༄ and theme park in the state above me with my family*.❤︎₊ ⊹ cuz it's closing down in a few months!
it was like a 2 hr drive but when I got there it was sooo fun! (˶˃ ᗜ ˂˶)!! I was too scared for big water slides but for some reason was fine with going on a roller coaster for the first time ܁ ˖ ‧₊˚⊹ lol!! it was pretty scary and the second one we went on was WORSE! (ㅠ﹏ㅠ) the first one was a biiig yellow one that had us UPSIDE DOWN once or twice but it was somehow less scary than the second!
The second was a huuuge⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖ wooden one that we stood in line waiting to get on for like an hr, looked really old and had no upside down moments but was really intense and I was SCREAMING (ᗒᗣᗕ) the whole time!!
Went on a couple other rides too but the wooden roller coaster was the WORST ݁₊⊹. ݁˖ !!!
I also did relaxing⋆˚࿔ stuff too like calm pools and stuff! I had so much fun! then me and my bf had a biiig fight that night that made me really sad and ruined my day .·°՞(˃ ᗝ ˂)՞°·.
August 2nd: me and my bf argued for like hours and then broke up... i was really sad about that for a couple weeks. kinda just spent all day being sad and watching tv and yt today
August 3rd: I had bought concert tickets in advance months ago and it was for music I REEAALLLYYY༄𖦹⋆⭒˚｡⋆ like so I still went despite being very, very sad :( from yesterday and.. I had a lot of fun!!! (˶>⩊<˶) Mostly a rock and metal concert, I had a lot of fun and some people there crowdsurfed lol
August 4th-10th: mostly trying not to sh or commit ⋆˙⟡suicide₊˚⊹♡, still very sad and researching therapists and about mental health, distracting myself as much as I can with games and yt and just kinda bedrotting all day and feeling extremely depressed (╥﹏╥) lol! got into NSO (needy streamer overload) and re-visited some childhood*ੈ✩‧₊˚ games
I LOVE KANGEL SM!!! I RELATE 2 HER SM TOO!! ⸜( ˶>ᴗ<˶)⸝♡
from pinterest
August 11th-19th: Late on the 11th and early on the 12th (up to like 1 or 2 AM i think-??) I was awake trying to see the meteorsᯓ☆ but.. sadly i live in the city and could not T_T started watching true crime, drama vids, building in minecraft (built a home and big floating nyan cat), writing and ♡daydreaming⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ a bit and re-watching marvel content,
i <3 wanda maximoff sm
I LOVE HER SO MUUUCH!!!! (灬♥ω♥灬)
the nyan cat :3
minecraft home pic 1
minecraft home pic 2
August 20th-24th: On the 20th went to my first ever therapy session with a new therapist! .✦ ݁˖ it went good, we talked about stuff I already know about like my pre-existing depression, autism, adhd and anxiety symptoms and at the end she brought up BPD⋆˚꩜｡ and i have been suspicious about maybe having that for a while so im not shocked! ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) next session sept 3rd!! later after therapy i practiced drawing.. I was feeling fine and just watching tv and gaming for a couple days!!!..... But then I all of a sudden felt weird on the 23rd and spent 2 hrs on and off self harming .·°՞(っ-ᯅ-ς)՞°·. i surgically removed a small scab off with a tiny blade for 2 hrs... it bled a bit during and hurt but i kept going until the scab was off.. it's mostly healed now.₊˚⊹♡ also ordered a cosplay wig commission for ben drowned! should be here within like a week at most from when I am typing this (8/30/26)
ben drowned!! :D
August 25th-28th: Have been writing about OC's and feeling more creative!⋆.˚໑ ݁༝ ۫ ׅ making lots of pinterest boards for certain OCs, concepts and fashion/character designs and also writing little short stories! really wanna start working on my deity ʚ♡ɞ OCs, I only have 3 deities with names yet. I also need to work more on my superhero, vampire and new mildly franbow x magical girl⋆.˚ inspired queer OC, a magical mentally ill feminine presenting ♡‧₊˚ he/they pansexual man who can see monsters, demons, ghosts and has a kawaii-ish >⩊< aesthetic inspired by morute, menhera fashion, yami kawaii, jfashion in general, and more
his vibe is (kinda????) like this
Comments
No comments yet.